[	mood	|	discontent	]
[	music	|	Welcome to my life	]

compared to the majority of today, yesterday was like a day at paradise. after drivers ed yesterday, me and katie went over to the kent library to help mel teach little kids the macarena. they were like from 2 up to going into 1st grade (the cutest kind) audrey and chloe came--the five of us kinda had a really hard time keeping quiet lol. then i had to drive audj home but decided to take her driving instead with her permit, so i took her on the back streets of lake carmel and let her drive. oh boy was that an interesting experience with someone who has never really driven that much, lol. it was fun though and i was proud of her at the end. came home and laid in my pool, then mellie came over and we were, well us of course, lol. between volleyball, swimming, playing in the thunderstorms, taking pictures and videos, and so much more. it was def a fun afternoon. then at night i went out with sisko and we wound up picking up joesph! i miss that kid, i havent seen him since the end of the school year so it was nice to hangout with him. we went to the cliffs to chill for a lil bit, then went on a mission to find out where the lights in the sky were coming from-- we were extremely disappointed when we found them coming from a car dealership in brewster. then we went swimming and knocking on kevins window at like 12, lol---lets just say it most def was one crazzzzy nite and i loved every minute of it. :-)

today was kinda a wasted day--sat around my house then went to work at 4. i worked with katie and laura tonite so it was fun, lol i love working with those girls. dan was delivering, so we just chilled after we got out of work. we tried to find something to do but thats impossible in carmel so we wound up back at my house and just watched the fugitive. it was a fun evening, but of course as soon as he left the mother had to go and just make my night like all the other ones. its normally becuase of her that i wonder why am i still here? ughh

melanie left today at 12:30 to go to Maryland and Delaware to look at colleges and she wont be back till sunday night--this is gunna be a hard next few days for me without her...

:-/

its 2:04 and i gotta get up at 6 so i can go to drivers ed early, then to visit Albany. and apparently im grounded for tom. nite so i cant go out cuz you know im a bad girl like that...god how i dont like her sometimes

goodnite

<3 Brittany Nicole

[	mood	|	restless	]
[	music	|	scars	]

i would update about my summer, but theres nothing really to say. i thought there was something good, but i guess i just hoped too much :-/ thats one of the bad things about life- everything gets better for you and you're finally begining to think good things, but then of course what goes up must come down. and everything that happens never makes any sense...   ive had a few good days and nites this summer surprisingly.   i absolutly love hanging out with my friends--whether its mellie, catherine, kimmy, jeremy, sisko, sean, and so on.  it most def. helps get my mind away from whatever it is that i am thinking about.  

about 2 weeks ago, life was good.  i was happy with everything~~~> Nothing lasts forever

isnt it amazing how frustrating guys can be? i dont need to go into detail but they always try to make things seem how they arent....why? why cant they just let things happen by themselves, and if they are happy with everything, let it go...and if not dont be shady about it...

i was gunna go into more, but im gunna leave it at that for now.  time to go watch Save the Last Dance...think(which is never good, lol)...then go to bed

sweet dreams

<3 Brittany Nicole

[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	John Cougar Melloncamp- "Jack and Diane"	]

im back in carmel and im already hating it. it seems that being home is my problem, but theres nothing i can really do about it. i had a lot of fun, aside from a few agrivating moments with my mom, in florida. disney was a lotttt of fun, i felt like such a lil girl again lol. i was in heavenn cuz there must have been like a ghetto camp there or something. there was like 20 million black guys there and the majority of them were so freakin hotttt!! ((mel and kim, u guys would have enjoyed it just as much as i did! lol)) i met a few people here and there. o man i could not believe how many guys had the most amazing eyes ever there! i didnt kno where to look cuz they were like everywhere!! i def. enjoyed being stared down a lott, lol. even though when i say that i sound full of myself. my mom and i had an interesting dinner when we went to Epcot...we ate in Italy and there was this Italian busboy who was like def. at least 25, but he wasnt at our table. he kept stopping and asking me if there was anything that i needed and then he said something to me but i couldnt understand him cuz of his accent. so my mom decided that it would b funny to say that the busboy was hittin on me and that i should flirt back so we can maybe get a free meal. that made an old lady sittin next to us look at me weird for the next liek 30 min., lol then at the parade in Magic Kingdom...i was watching the chimney sweepers dance and they were all young guys..but the one closest to me and my mom kept lookin at me and my mom saw him so she told me that i should get nice with him and then maybe he could get me a job dancing in disney, lol. i wont lie though..he was really cute lol. overall it was a good vacation...got my much needed time away from my house and everything that was going on. i really did dread coming back here cuz i knew that once i came back everything would go back to normal. of course i was right lol. but nobody cares about that kind of stuff so no need to write it. im gunna head off to bed now seeming i have school tom. morning :-/ booo!

prom is this friday...cant wait...hopefully it will be fun! but im sure it will be..i just wish i could go to six flaGs on sunday or somewhere! stupid dance team lunch crap! lol i hope i look pretty! :-)

*brit

"The best thing in life is to get away from everyone and everything, even the ones and things you love." - My Aunt Jean

*O yeah, Life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone* - John Cougar

"And I another, So weary with disasters, tugged with fortune, That I would set my life on any chance to mend it or be rid on 't." -First murderer from Macbeth

"To know my deed , 'twere best not know myself."   -Macbeth